i'll just talk abt the MBS encounters.
the concert LOL IDK. i dont know if i will be coherent enough to type.
will see how it goes.

okay so i overnighted at mbs to get the color tags.
cos it's totally impossible for me to get down at 4am with no public transport or idk what
and cabbing is just too expensive.
so i was camping at mbs on the night of 3rd dec.

right before that was the 2pm fanmeet of which i could see the boyssssss!~
i got super excited LMAO.
took pictures. they ended up mostly crappy but im still happy i have a few pictures of them!
and the day before was 2am fanmeet/fansign.
need to dedicate another post to that.

so here goes.
met up with claire, jingying, ersalina, teresa and xinmu right outside the mbs expo convention hall.
either way, there was no so called official queue yet and everybody was just loitering around.
so we decided to just go mbs and slack :D
THAT WAS TOTALLY A GOOD CHOICE ERSY.

claire and i decided not to go to the bar cos we didn't want to pay money /cheapskate
LOLL.  and jeans just wasn't too appropriate.
so we just sat at the lobby. and i tell you whoever designed that water front concept at the lobby is a genies
cos it was super cooling at night! :D
and i dropped my ipod pouch into the water ROFL DAMN AMAZING.
then i was airing my punch and stuff WHEN SUDDENLY SEULONG WALKED PAST
LIKE OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
IT'S SEULONG AT THE LOBBY CANNN!
i thought it was jinwoon cos of the funny back haircut
but after we followed it turned out to be seulong. i just flipped like shit.
there was a bunch of fans following him so it's easy to spot.
so we followed as well but we kept our distance and didnt make noise.
IM SO PROUD OF IAMs okay.
he went to the lift landing with manager/security and waited for the lift.
then he turned around to look at us.
HE WAS JUST SO CUTE AND NICE. JUST SUPER NICE GUY.
and his smile was like ^___^
then ppl were like shouting "seulong oppa nomu meotshisseoyo!"
and he smiled even more! omg so cute.
the lift came and he waved bye bye at us and we were like WAVE BACK.

CLAIRE HAD TO PUSH ME FORWARD LOL. IDK
I DIDNT DARE TO GO TOO FRONT.
AND I DIDN'T DARE CALL HIS NAME.
JUST TOO SURREAL.

then i was fine. around 30mins or 1hr later?
by then it was already 12plus AM nearing 1AM
there was some mystery guy in a wifebeater walking with security at the 2nd level.
cos MBS is designed in such a way that we can see the guests walking along the hotel rooms corridor
it was easy to see who's where and what.
till this day i still can't identify who he is.
but he was kinda butt. not taec buff.. some ppl said wooyoung but im not very sure
the black beanie just covered his hair and it was hard to recognise without the hair y'know.
so we were expecting more ppl to appear at the corridors so we just waited at that part of the lobby with other fans.

AND THEN TAECCHANKHUN CAME OUT OF THEIR HOTEL ROOM.
I SWEAR I RMB WHICH ROOM IT IS ALREADY. LOLL
THEY CAME OUT. AND TAEC WAS SO FUCKING BUFF AND SEXY.
AND ALL HE WORE AS HIS TOP WAS A FREAKING WIFEBEATER
OHGOSH HIS SHOULDERS WERE SO FREAKING BROAD, THEY'D BE NICE TO LEAN ON!~
LIKE OMGOMGOMGOMG. TAECCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC.
then chan was like deeply engrossed with his handphone LOL. usual magnae behaviour and khun just followed behind.
THEN IDK WHO TAEC WAS WAVING TO AT THE OTHER SIDE OF THE HOTEL LMAO.
IT WAS JUST LMAO, I GET TO SEE HIS NORMAL NON-TV-CONTROLLED ACTIONS.
AND HIS FACIAL EXP. :DDDD
HE HAS THIS REALLY CONFUSED FACE WHEN ASKING QUESTIONS! AND SO ADORABLE.
AND HEH, HIS ARM IS FREAKING LONG WHEN HE EXTENDED IT FROM THE CORRIDOR.

they then proceeded to the other building which we could see them walk all the way cos of the design loll.
AND TAEC HELD THE RAILINGS WHILE WALKING.
hahahahahah! claire said it was cute! but lol i thought it was natural~~
like you feel like holding the failings cos it's cold and nice to touch right?
HAH. OR IM JUST AS ADORABLE AS TAEC ♥
then they disappeared.
some said they went to work out at the gym, some said they went to drink, lol
yah, in hoodies and wifebeaters?
claire and i were fully starstruck then..
seriously. HAHA. and we unknowingly held hands when taecchankhun walked out of the hotel room.
LOL NEEDED TO HOLD SOMEONE, literally.

nothing else for the rest of the night except for queueing being bored and idk what.
but after going through all the fucking squeezing it's damn scary can.
we got the tags for the first 500 ppl and we went to slack at mbs again!
WOOHOO.
so the thing is when we went got the tags, we bought official merchandise for the concert as well.
and we were sitting at the lobby and arranging stuff to carry properly.
and we were just done. and i tell you JUST DONE.
WHEN JIN-FUCKING-WOON walked past us.
IS 2AM TRYING TO KILL US OR SOMETHING. THEY KEEP APPEARING AT THE LOBBY!!

he was alone with his manager who was clad in a grey wifebeater~
manager-oppa looks a little buff too. do they all train at the gym tgt or something? :D
we followed all the way and stopped when he went inside the cafe for breakfast.
he didn't eat much i think.
it's like he went in.. then manager came out to look at the buffet or something?
or took food back in for jinwoon.. then jinwoon suddenly came out to the buffet place again and went back.
idk what he took.
but i think it's possible they have a personal buffet table in the vip room meant for the concert artiste.
so he was probably taking small stuff like butter or idk what.
in less than 30mins, he came out of the cafe and went back up again.
as usual we followed him to the lift, and claire was filming behind him lol.
he was tall and lmao, DAO. hahahhahah
i don't really care. it's freaking morning.
don't expect ppl to entertain you.. i just dont want him pissed off and he just seemed genuinely wanting to walk fast and get back to the room asap. nothing wrong.
and when he pushed the lift door open as it was closing, so that he doesnt have to stay at the lift lobby
and be looked upon by the fans (which i understand is totally uncomfortable)
IT WAS SO HOT. LOL. IT SOUNDS STUPID NOW.
BUT WHEN HE DID THAT I JUST WENT WHOAA.
HE LOOKED SO MANLY OKAY.
AND I THINK I REALLY  REALLY LIKE MANLY GUYS. hahhahahahaah.
and he went in~

then claire's dad came so we could deposit our official merchandise cos it was bulky and all.
and im so thankful towards him!
he bought drinks, help us keep stuff and after the concert he sent me back too! :D
i wasn't expecting anyone to send me home from a concert cos it's leisure and nothing urgent,
thus no need to bother other ppl.
but yeah, just so awesome :D

after that i was sipping the lemon barley that claire's dad bought. then fangirls were suddenly looking at the corridors above us and doing all sorts of ILU gestures.
went over there.
AND IT WAS MIR. OMG. HE'S DAMN DAMN CHEEKY OKAY.
he was like "i like you guys!" repeatedly with gangsta-ish gestures
like kissing his thumb then pointing at us~
then he cupped his hand around his ear. that was the best man i tell you.
seriously. ALL HELL WENT LOOSE COS IT MEANT TO "MAKE SOME NOISE"
THE FANS SCREAMED FOR HIM LIKE TOTALLY. I WAS THERE LAUGHING MY ASS OFF.
I DIDN'T DARE TO SCREAM AT MBS. INAPPROPRIATE.
BUT IT WAS MIR WHO MADE US SCREAM SO... I CHEERED A LITTLE, WAVED VIGOROUSLY AT HIM, lmao.
it may give a bad impression to tourists and im so sorry about that
but i guess it was a once in a lifetime opportunity.
we obviously care more about mir so we had to cheer for him.. if not it would be like super awkward for him

and actually after that, i questioned his maturity.
HAHAHAH. he's the same age as us and ppl always say that boys are more immature than their same age female counterparts.
not sure how true though.
and then i thought, maybe he was wondering why we weren't screaming when he appeared~
he either knew we felt restricted and wanted to let us scream, or truly just wanted some noise for fun.
LOL. BUT MIR WAS JUST SO CUTE.
HIS FANSERVICE. ♥♥♥♥

and then i was back to slowly sipping on lemon barley again.
claire was tweeting back to mir on her phone...
and i was ranting/complaining why i wasn't seeing changmin.
he's really one fine guy upclose. and i dare to vouch his personality is like one of the best!
then more random stuff abt why im not seeing more 2pm guys ROFL.
AM I UNGRATEFUL OR WHAT.
anyway just like that. I was looking straight across me looking at the ppl walking past.
AND SEULONG APPEARED IN FRONT OF ME AGAIN. OHGOSH.
AND WE HAD EYECONTACT COS WE WERE SITTING DOWN AND WHEN I SAW HIM I STOOD UP IMMEDIATELY AND HE TURNED HIS HEAD TO LOOK. AND I JUST PUSHED CLAIRE TOWARDS HIM COS I DIDNT WANT TO LEAVE HER BEHIND LOST.
AND SHE ALMOST BUMPED INTO SEULONG AND LUCKILY DIDNT.
i think the manager panicked a little because of me. but yeah. so sorry manager oppa!
then i was walking RIGHT BEHIND HIM LIKE RIGHT BEHIND HIM SO NEAR.
I COULD FEEL A LITTLE HEAT RADIATING.
AND IT WAS SO NEAR THAT YOU KNOW YOUR ARMS MOVE WHEN YOU WALK?
WHEN HIS HAND MOVED BACK I COULD TOUCH IT WITHOUT STRETCHING.
I JUST HAD TO HOLD ME HAND OUT.
BUT I DIDN'T I DIDN'T WANT TO INVADE HIS PRIVACY...
im proud that i made the decision to not hold his hand cos it's totally weird to have ur hand held suddenly while walking unless you know the person, get what i mean?
then ppl behind me were like tapping on his back with ONE FINGER and im like LOLWHUT.
HAAHAH ONE FINGER. that's weird..
i was staring at his hand the whole time.
i wanted to hold it sooooooo badly. to me, he's like the perfect guy.
but i just didn't cos of my own morals.
his hand looks so warm~ like slightly flush pink at the palms and his tanned at the rest.
then i could see his arm hair (LMAO) so clearly.
i just... AHHHH.
whatever it was, he went to the lift lobby again.
and waited for the lift. poor boy always has to wait for the lift HAHAH.
as he was about to go in i just shouted BYE BYE SEULONG! other ppl shouted tooo
and he was like all smiles again, waved and went in.
it was just so magical i didnt feel like leaving the place at all.

and you know the eye-contact.
his eyes are like big and nice and they look really kind. i just... melt when i repeat the scene you know.
im kinda glad that i didnt have a camera with me so i could just concentrate on seeing him upclose...
pros and cons :D
this experience was truly a great great one.

and i just fell deeper in love with seulong.
idk who gets the most love in terms of popularity actually.
kwon is a definite.. but seulong is definitely me bias ♥

ONGONG!

RAWR RAWR.
my first week in school!!~~ :D:D
overall it has been pretty enjoyable cos all the work hasnt started and i havent got any tutorials yet..
ohwells, we'll see how it goes soon!~

so currently. im like slacking at the computer centre while joce does her online appeal stuff.
apparently some stuff went wrong when she bidded for her modules...
hope all goes well for her? yup.

so what lessons have i gone through.
the first one was maths lecture.
nothing too memorable just that i met a whole bunch of og-mates at the lecture and we kinda sat together so it was all good~
the lecturer was pretty nice too~ not too fast or anything but i think i followed pretty well for functions.
though, it could be because we have studied functions before and it was basically a recap of what we learnt.

yeahyeah, then i went to physics lecture with brandon.
i seriously think i may be screwed for physics.
my physics isnt that strong to begin with and here... i have to deal with classical physics again.
which sucks pretty darn much. UGHH.
the lecturer spent like 1hr for the module intro and the next 1hr doing measurements...
it was kinda useless. he said it himself. there isnt a need for too much to be spent on measurements..
but he was trying to make the first session relaxed :D
he's a nice person though!

and then today. i had my gem2901.
IT WAS FABULOUS. FANTASTIC ELASTIC FANTASTIC ELASTIC.
the lecturer was freaking humorous!!!~
didnt feel like sleeping.. and hey, analyzing data is actually kinda interesting! ^^
HAHA. PLUS PLUS, im taking this module with jocelyn! so not so many worries :D
just super super enjoyable. just thinking how the project would be..
lecturer said that it isnt easy to score in his module! :///

LASTLY. gek1508. the module that i anticipated the most~~~
the lecturer's like super nice too~ just that the people in the lecture were noisy.
felt a little sorry for him....
and he said stuff about slowing down time and teleporting~
which made me super hyped cos i freaking watched a documentary on it on discovery science channel :D
my favourite theoretical physicist!

yupyupyupyupyupyup.
so im now playing songs on youtube and typing away on the keyboard.
while waiting for eunice to come. yup. dinner at holland v~

the last post i was talking about customising my laptop and all..
and i guess i have done it already?

installed rainmeter and rocketdock this morning to my laptop..
tried out some new themes here and there..
but configuring was really very hard using a laptop.
i almost died from having to keep moving the cursor cos the drop out dialog kept disappearing..

either way.
i got my stuff done.
WITH REALLY PRETTY ICONS THAT I FOUND ON THE INTERNET.
IT'S LIKE AWESOME CANN?
got a really rainmeter theme to just show the date and time.
i like my desktops to be clean without all the windows-icon splattered across my screen.
thus having the rocketdock. :D

AND HOT GUYS.
MY BIAS ON WALLPAPER SLIDESHOW (((((((:
spent quite some time sifting out the pictures from my huuuuuge database of 2pm pictures..
and then finding those of appropriate dimensions.
my brain got fried a little.

so here's my new laptop look! :D
with flyyy taecyeon.

RAH, SO NEW LAPTOP HERE I COME!

up till now (a matter of like what 3days?) the fujitsu has been doing it’s job well..
but then again.. it's cos i haven't downloaded much stuff onto my laptop.
AT LEAST, i've installed vlc media player and firefox.
idt i can live without firefox seriously.
i'm so accustomised to it that i can't help but to cringe at IE when i use it.
and lol, kpop firefox persona, i have it.

AND I CHANGED THE WALLPAPER TO JAY PARK.
IT'S JAY FREAKING PARK.
i can be a happy fangirl while in school yeah?
cos he looks so freaking fly in the sidusHQ shots and he inspires me (((:

YEP.
okay, this is like a mini post cos i wanted to try posting an entry from windows live writer..
i have seriously no idea how well it works.
i dont think i am bothered with images and all at the moment..

and should i install Rainmeter to my laptop.
that whole script thing is kinda confusing and i spent around 4hrs plus before finally understanding what i had to do to personalise it the way i want.
honestly speaking, i haven't touched the personalisation part like in ages.
not entirely sure if i want to lol.

AND SCREW YOU CORS.
I WANT MY EG1413 MODULE SO BADLY SO GIVE IT TO ME
hopefully ppl are nice enough to not go snatch with others?
i have 6 ppl bidding for my slot out of the 10 vacancies available. so it's all good for now.
idk what's gonna happen tmr. GRR.

and freaking enginclub.
just send the camp details and checklist already!
we are sppsd to meet on sunday aren't we?!

this is one of the most emotionally devastating dreams i've ever had.

the setting constantly alternated between a school classroom and a fanmeeting hall.
obviously the artiste of the fanmeeting was 2pm...
from what i deduce, i'm a (close) friend of 2pm and also support their stages..

the dream just started with this sense of betrayal.
i know that 2pm was divided into 2 cliques/groups.
taecyeon, junho, chansung  AND  nichkhun, wooyoung, junsu.
i either forgot what happened or the conflict didnt even happen in my dream.
but the sense of disappointment was there.
it seemed like taecyeon, junho and chansung's personalities changed, for the worse
it was just a feeling that i had. by then, nichkhun, wooyoung and junsu were already totally pissed at the 3 of them,
MAJORLY PISSED. they weren't even on speaking terms.

okay, so all the above happened in the classroom.. as well as the next few sentences.
as i said i was a (close) friend of 2pm.
no idea what came over me, but i just couldn't believe myself that taechochan changed so drastically for the worse.
taec was sitting on a table with his feet dangling in the air facing the blackboard. it was after school i suppose.
so he was just stoning over there.
with so much misbelief, i walked over to him and hugged him from his front.
and i asked him "am i really stupid?"
taec didnt say anything but he put his arms slightly around me and lightly shook his head.
then junho from behind me (front of taec) said, "YES, you are really stupid"

i just burst out in tears in taec's arms... and he didn't comfort me.
he just.. pulled away from the hug, IT WAS SO FREAKING DEVASTATING.
it was like i was fooled by them. i really hated that feeling.

i just ran to the corner closet of the classroom where brooms and dustpans were stored (like in nanyang)
i went inside and started bawling. i cried so much my head hurt a lot.
i coudlnt even see properly cos the tears were blurring my eyesight.
it was the exact same feeling of betrayal i had after listening to the 2pm press conference audio
just much greater.. cos there was no way i could justify junho's behaviour...
and the truth fell hard on my shoulders. so hard... that i couldn't take it.

with a tear-streaked face, blank face and empty heart, i walked out of the closet to the classroom to take my bag.
appears that they were looking at footage from their fanmeeting on the projector screen.
it showed fans dancing along to Without U like some kind of flash mob.. just that everyone did tgt at the event.
khun and ho also held hands tgt while doing a baackflip.
in which every member of 2pm were all-smiles.

i was there watching the footage with them.. it was just heartbreaking.
but i could feel my boiling anger towards junho.
it's like finally, i understand what (and maybe why) anti-2pm ppl are feeling towards 2pm irl.
i felt so freaking betrayed by junho i really wanted to bash him up.
and was disgusted with his smiles in the fanmeet footage.
taec couldnt even look at me in the eye...

i felt so angry at myself for also believing them... i just walked out of the classroom.
and my dream ended.








So i guess by now i know what's the feeling of hate and betrayal..
the extent that the anti-2pm ppl experience..
i think i understand what kind of emotions they are going through..
and it is indeed really scary..
if i were at the conference myself, i think i would have broken down and cried..
and then become an anti.. cos the same situation happened in my dream and it ended up that way.
reality is just so terrifying. D;

first of all, i have to say:

RIP 박용하 씨

yah.. i have no idea what happened for him to hang himself..
but i really wish he's better off now in another world.
though his family, relatives and friends... my prayers go out to them.
i really loved his acting in On Air...
and he was supposed to have a new drama this year too..
sigh, unexpected changes yeah?

either way, i was supposed to post about my dream from last night.
nonetheless, it's with kimjunsu again..
i've been having too many dreams with him lately.

so the dream started out like any other field trip..
just that it was late at night and we were walking past gas stations to get back to our coach bus..
so i assumed that we were walking back from some diners or something.
then the bus-driver said stuff like "if you guys wanna use the toilets, you only have the gas stations ones to use, but be careful~"
HOW DISCREET. THANKS A LOT.

i asked him which gas station i should go and i just pointed to the last gas station in sight..
it wasn't very far but i had to walk a little distance.
AND LOOKING AT A VERY OBV SCARED ME, I PULLED A GUY FRIEND ALONG WITH ME.
ta-daa, kimjunsu. too bad, his broad shoulders are one hell of a security inducing mechanism
so i just held his hand and pulled him along.
he didnt resist, anyway. so why not?

typical stuff like flickering lights. FREAKY.
the toilets were run-down too...
and i was totally thinking that would be some kind of creepy music as soon as i stepped into the cubicles..
IDONTKNOW. i had this mad desire to just pull junsu with me into the toilet cubicle with me...
so that i wouldnt be as scared and i had someone to hold onto.
i seriously wouldn't be caring about unglam-ness or stuff like "don't look at me pee, i'm a girl and you're a guy"
just gdi, give me a nice warm hand to hold so that i would feel safe.

i think i may have left out some creepy details from the dream?
cos next scene that happened was that i was hugging junsu super super super tight.
and didnt want to let go at all. and i was crying buckets.
it was like crying out of fear and out of relief.. so i presume that some bad stuff happened that i didnt remember...
and junsu was suck a cutie-pie...
he sang while we hugged and it was really comforting.. and his warm chest against mine.
i dont think i could have felt safer than that.

and magical stuff happens..
with all credits to this picture. :D


so well, the following may be too graphical for anyone to read so..just skip over it.
as he was hugging me, he slowly pulled back a little from the hug and made this face at me.
my first reaction was to just laugh at him..
then he tried a little more harder and i kissed him on his lips.
then his tongue just.. yeah. we frenched..
but i never do that without first nibbling on the lower lip lol, it's my little fetish to always nibble on the lower lip.
the kiss was just so amazing and nice and warm.
super comfortable~ could literally feel the hormones flowing through my body.

and the dream just ended with more hugs and cuddles.
it was so sweet :D

basically cos i'm bored and i'm bored.. and yeah, i'm bored so i'm posting.
WELL, I WAS SUPPOSED TO POST ABOUT BEAST COMING TO SINGAPORE..
but i kinda haven't got over yet..
just typing that last sentence has left me with a slight butterfly feeling in my stomach.
ideky.

OKAY.
so today i went to see my ortho/dentist.
MY SEUNGHO LOOKALIKE!! :DDD
hahaha, i always feel happy when i go see him, but that's a given considering how i think he looks like seungho.
i've got no one to vouch for that though.
no one who knows seungho has seen him before..
i don't think my mum knows seungho.. lol, no. she doesn't.
so yeah.

so... i thought i was going to get my uhh braces tightened and have the rubber bands changed.
but no.
he just uh, stuffed? fitted rubber bands to the last tooth of each corner, all 4 molars.
he encircled each tooth with the rubber band.
AND TA-DAA. he turned on the tap thing for the water to flow into the cup and i rinsed my mouth.
i was done. DAMN FREAKING FAST.

i have another appointment with him next week to change the rubber bands to metal rings.
so.. that was basically what he told me after fitting the rubber bands.
and maybe a little more other information about how my gums are still covering a little of the ends of my teeth..
so lest the metal rings don't fit he would be putting some metal tube instead.
TUBE. no freaking idea how that actually works.. he showed me the model.. but it doesnt even look like a tube.
seriously, dentistry you confuse me all the time~~

he then passed me the big piece of hospital receipt.
then i asked him where i should put the goggles... he just said to leave it on the table top..
you know the table top where the dentist has his computer, sink and does all the writing there?
yah that one. so i just placed it there.
and moved along the table top to the door where my bag was.
mind you, he was looking at me from the moment i put the goggles down till i was walking to the door.
LOL, cos he had nothing to do.
and it was just common courtesy to like "see" your patient out.
EITHER WAY.
i stepped on this rubber button on the floor without me noticing.
then i realised that the tap was freaking running.
and i was like "YAH, OH-OO-SSSSHI"
which can be easily typed into korean as "야!!! 오우-씨!!"
it makes much more sense in korean cos it's something one would say when on the verge of swearing...

AND I STARTED LAUGHING. lololol.
IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING.
then i blurted out a "sorry" in between my laughter/giggles.
IT WAS LIKE LOLLLL TAP TURNED ON?!
and he looked at me with a really amused expression...
like "how could this even be happening?"
ROFL. and i just said byebye and he said byebye back.

so much for a dentist-trip huh? :D
but it was fun~
HE HAS REALLY NICE COLOGNE SMELL TOO!
yah, and i hope that the metal rings wouldn't feel too bad next week...
but then again, once something is tightened in my jaws.. all i feel is tension from it and i can't bite properly.
it feels like my teeth may break. screw it man.

i just hope that i can be done and over with my braces...
they make me teeth look not nice ))): my smile too!
just let me go for my surgery asap!~ my teeth are straight doode.
just let me saw off the end of my jaws and i'll have a normal lower jaw..
AND VOILA. i'm done.
i wanna skip the braces part so badly~

-i can totally understand junsu's chin/jaw complex which affects his selfconfidence cos it's the same for me too..-

so jay fans are now officially called Jaywalkers.
Collectively, Jaywalkers are called the JayEffect.
official colors being yellow and red.

and the korean fans decide to go batshit on us.
okay...so you guys are upset that your votes weren't counted in the end?
i understand. everyone would like be called what they like right?

think again. is Bumblebee.. really a suitable fanclub name for jay-fans?
he's gonna start all over again, in America.
cutesy stuff like this isn't gonna work at all.
and i can tell you, if the fans are really called Bumblebees...
be rest assured that the general american public would be teasing him to no end...
we get the image that the Jonas Brothers is only meant for pre-teens girls/ disney followers..
any gay caught liking them would be like an immediate "OMG. ARE YOU GAY OR WHAT?" reaction.
similarly, if jay were to name his fanclub Bumblebee, people would get the image that he's doing some lameshit stuff.
and he's not gonna get much respect for that.
in addition, he's doing rapping and bboying. what kind of shit is this bumblebee oh-so-cute name?
it doesn't even make sense. it's like totally contradictory.

so please, understand what jay's trying to say..
and it's not like he totally rejected the idea of Bumblebee..
at least he's still using yellow and black.
granted, it's still different and less significant than using a name that you like...
but he's trying to accommodate everyone?

if he didn't have the fans in mind.. he wouldn't have listened to the fans' suggestion of having a fanclub name.
he wouldn't have asked us to suggest names. he wouldn't have asked us to vote for the names.
it just turned out that he suddenly had another (better) idea.
he may seem like a "jerk" for making us vote than vetoing it... but that isn't the case.
something just popped up in his head.
and it's HIS fanclub afterall... you mean he doesn't have the right to veto?



what's the point of all this hate?
after ALL that we've been through together.. to support Jay..and give him love.
why are (some of) the korean jay-fans hating on us?
aren't we supposed to be one big family that supports jay no matter what?
idgi. what "international whores/bitches" and "jay is american like the rest of them"
OH PLEASE. not all international fans are americans. which part of INTERNATIONAL do they not understand?
jay's not biased towards anyone.
whenever he posts a bulletin, writes a message, says a message,
he remembers to include both english and korean.
there's a reason for you to be upset.. but not for you to hate on us international fans.
i can be mean and say: "you guys are the international fans this time round. what are you trying to bitch about?!"
but no. afterall jay started out from korea and i will respect his roots.

if you guys are really that butthurt.. well then just hate on us, not jay.
you can't possibly hate jay just because he didn't go your way.
it's nonsensical! stop being immature and stubborn. learn to accept, understand and tolerate.
it's like hating on your parents because they aren't willing to buy you the latest gadgets.
it's unnecessary and trivial.

i seriously thought that these korean jay-fans would be so much more matured...
(in their defense, im not sure if this is entirely a good gauge of their maturity)
i'm just disappointed at how elitism is soo deeply rooted in korean fan-culture.
i really don't see how we are inferior to them? we love and support them as much as they do.
isn't that what fandom is all about?
it's not like i'm liking him purely for his looks or we didn't go through the same pain of seeing him leave korea and then experience the joy of seeing him pop up on youtube and twitter.
the way they are trying to be all superior disgusts the hell out of me.





on a happier note, TAEC FINALLY JOINED TWITTER!
IT'S LIKE A DREAM COME TRUE FOR ME! ♥
and ooh, blackberry as well. these guys are srsly tempting me to buy a blackberry..

sigh, emotional rollercoaster.
so many things happened today.

1. Jay's youtube video/fanclub announcement
2. 2pm's RIsk my life for You MV
3. k-fans going batshit
4. taec joining twitter

it's been a rough day~

big discovery!
WENTZ EIJI LOOKS LIKE KHUNNNN!
this fact totally didnt cross my mind despite me knowing abt WaT from uhh, 4 years ago?
mixed blood people really do look the same sometimes.
i mean, they have similar features.
AND THEY ARE BOTH SUPER FAIR. LOLOLOL.
milky white skin~~














i think it's the eyes~
both of them have got really round eyes that make them look as if they are wearing circle lenses 24/7
ahh~ lucky them!

ohgosh ohgosh ohgosh ohgosh.
big news people! big news.


KHUN'S GONNA BE ON WGM.,,!
WITH VICTORIA!
I'M SUPER JEALOUSSSSSSSSS~
not raging, just super jealous.

everyone knows how nice a person khun is... plus mnet scandal was an eyeopener..
khun's gonna be so cute and sweet and all.
but i can't wait for him to show some of his manliness.
i get the super manly vibe from him when he talks about his family, especially his sisters..
but in terms of dating.. obv no one was able to see it.
mnet scandal didnt showcase his true personality cos everything was shot under the prying eyes of passers-by..
BUT NOW. full glory :D

let's hope victoria will teach him some mandarin?
granted khun has already learnt basic chinese before but well, make the episodes a little more interesting.. and do some teaching (:
im not sure about victoria's personality so i can't really judge.
but the thought that she's under SME frightens me a little.
obv, she's gonna feel restricted. SME is known for being strict.
plus, she's from an idol girl grp. gotta keep that innocent image... hmm.

OHWELLS. I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THEM TOGETHER.

p.s. i really love my new junho-butt icon. dreamteam's production team is clever for bringing in this guy with that awesome butt so that we can see him in workout shorts/pants and see him dive/drop into water and come out dripping wet looking sexy.
thankyou dream team for the eye-candy! :D